I came into this world scar free, over the years and who knew that I would end up collecting one scar after another. For some just going through one road traffic accident would have been more than enough to bear. Collecting scars one operation after the other that seemed like infinity.
I had another traumatic road traffic accident, thankfully just pain, no scars this time. Oh, but, I became greedy and had to have children. For mothers an episiotomy would have been enough but after suffering the trauma of a disastrous c-section my battle did not end there! Oh no! Another battle loomed and years of surgery to correct the infection resulted in two tummy tucks, scar revisions and liposuction. This battle remains ongoing.
When I think about it, and look at where they stabbed me in my chest to open up my lungs when I suffered pneumonia and measles as a child, that scar looks like nothing, not even after having to have my nose fixed, again being greedy, having a septo-rhinoplasty instead my just a regular rhinoplasty, the scars at the sides of my nose are practically invisible.
So what hurts the most, not having a scar to display my trauma or people being mean about my scars? This hurt a lot, I was told by someone well you can't wear bikini's now because of those scars. Did that hurt as much as my scars do when they are healing or have been knocked? Those painful knocks pass quickly, hurtful words leave the most hideous of scars, they tear you up inside more than any surgeon can.
Scarred for life....