Whenever I talk about my boobs my ‘go-to’ response is always “it was either new boobs or a new kitchen…the boobs won”
I was 26 and we were re-mortgaging our house so found we had a few extra pennies to spare. In truth, the motivation to have the operation was so more than that.
I had had all 3 of my children by that time, daughter aged 6 and son aged 1; my first daughter had died only a few hours old. My breasts had completely disappeared…literally; I can’t even blame it on breastfeeding as I was not able to. I was wearing an AA cup bra with 2 chicken fillets in each…and there was still room for more. I had been a D cup prior to having the children and with that, alongside suffering with depression and being in a mentally and physically abusive relationship, I was at rock bottom. I had contemplated suicide several times but always backed out at the last minute.
It sounds silly now, but back then I didn’t think of myself as a woman worthy of love on any level and the lack of breasts added to that ridiculous thought; it all went round and round in my head and I was consistently believing that I was worthless, useless and any other negative word you can think of!
I traveled to Birmingham to have the op and was back home the next day. I had been told to rest and not strain for a few days to allow the healing process to take hold. Not so easy when dealing with 2 children and a house to run.
The new additions didn’t make me feel any better about myself so shortly after having the surgery, I started going to counseling to try and re-find who I was; the physical scars were now there but the mental ones from years of self-loathing were deep-rooted. My counselor Maggie was my saviour; she made me realise and believe that I was worthy and that I was so much more of a woman than I had ever believed.
I am pleased to say that I now have a completely different mindset to those day and I feel stronger every day.
The breast implants have certainly helped my journey of rediscovery, but I now see them for what they are…an addition to an already incredible person xxx