My name is Kizzy Brockall. I was in a caravan fire on July 10th 2013.
Prior to the fire I was in an abusive relationship. I felt like something was wrong with me, why did I choose these men who treated me like this? I felt really down and upset.
Because of this domestic violence and from missing appointment after appointment social services took my children away from me and told me to say my last goodbyes to them.
It felt like my life had been taken away from me! I felt like my world had ended and broken down, I couldn't get any help. I wanted to be with my kids if not in person then in spirit at least so I could guide them.
July 10th. I remember just setting myself on fire in the caravan. Just myself and no one else, just to take the pain away that I felt...
After a few months I woke up, I didn't know what was going on. I had been in a coma and died 3 times. The pain was so bad!
I am so lucky to be alive; I have 95% burns on my body.
It’s hard for me to see myself as me. The way people stare and the things they say, it’s so hard!
I want to be that mum again. My oldest girl lives with my mum and I have her on weekends and some holidays. I find it hard as I have trouble with breathing and pain. Sometimes I just don't have the energy.
I go swimming with her when not to many people are at the pool. I hate the way I look but I know I need to get used to it and try to love the skin I am in.
I love posting photographs of myself showing people that I am OK but I do suffer from depression, so many down days and stay in bed days.
In hospital I relearned how to talk, walk and eat. I felt like I was reborn like a phoenix from the ashes.